Chapter 4
Chapter 3: Logging in
At first, Rebeka intended to solve the problem calmly, open the phone, and look at the photos and messages calmly, especially to find out if Omar was also being written to on that phone. Afterward, perhaps she would look through all the other applications, including the deleted files, so that she could come to a sensible conclusion about what to continue to feel and think. But who was using someone else’s name as a password?
‘It’s a cheap shot, and if it’s true, it means he’s obsessed; why not forgive him? Ultimately, that someone else beat me to it means I was wasting my time by not taking the first step.’
‘After putting the horniness aside for a moment, he analyzed, ‘In this device’s gallery, there might be compromising photos; if so, checking them wouldn’t be enough. It’s better to have the occasion to admire them and even memorize them if necessary. Maybe the messages from another girl have been the fruit of my imagination, which is what I most want to believe. But, now, the curiosity to see the pictures of another person naked, doing things that can’t be told and only seen, even if it was with someone else, eats me up inside.’
The fantasies in Rebeka’s mind were proliferating, but time kept running and the train stopped.
In the moving crowd, Omar was still hovering over her. In plain sight, he looked like someone suspicious, a pervert who would take the opportunity to sniff the hair of a stranger, watching closely and maintaining contact. The reality was that between the two of them, even if no one noticed, the most perverted one on the train was Rebeka. The irrefutable proof was that she ducked her head and let her hair fall over her face as she discreetly looked down to see if the boy who was so close to her was getting an erection.
‘I can’t think straight;, what am I doing? From just wanting to touch his hand. He’s so close, he can make any move and take my phone if I keep getting careless. Let me hide it between my bra and my breasts. I’m not going to be the only one getting horny in a situation like this.’
“My name, uh?” she said as she pocketed the phone, unable to help but soften her bravado face with a smile. “How sweet of you. I forgive your audacity to sneak a picture of me. For now, I’m afraid to tell you that your cell phone is confiscated until further notice.”
Of course, Rebeka went out on a limb with that comment. For sure, she was simply assuming something and hoping she was right. When he said'sneak photo’ her feminine instinct had screamed at her, and she had done nothing but listen.
“Until further notice?” he asked her, well surprised, wide-eyed, at such lenient punishment.
He didn’t deny, nor did he claim innocence, nor was he surprised at her words, something that made Rebeka assume she was right.
“It’s time, here we get off” she said, as long as she didn’t answer the question and followed the people who were heading towards the exit.
‘Out of all the passwords someone could put on their phone, why in the world would you choose my name? Because he likes me. There is no other explanation. If so, I still have a chance, maybe I should give her a gift. Dare while I’m moving to leave. ‘ It’s already confirmed that if I don’t take the first step, things will go on as usual.’
One step behind the other, passengers were getting off the carriage at the corresponding train station.
‘Why check with my eyes something I could feel with my hands?’ she wondered, somewhat hesitantly. Rebeka paused, ‘Now!’ and discreetly let Omar bump into her. ‘All I have to do is wait with my hand open, behind my ass, at the level of his crotch, to feel what I want so badly.’
The collision between the two bodies took place, and her hand received, grabbed, and massaged the package of the distracted boy, who didn’t hesitate to give a little jump in such an unexpected situation.
‘Phew, yes... exactly on the spot,’ she thought, having as a reference point her thumb, which made contact with the buckle of Omar’s belt. ‘He’s got a hard-on. Tremendous bulge I could feel it live and direct. Too bad I couldn’t see the reaction on his face. Maybe, from now on, he will look more at my cheeky and almost shorter skirt than allowed.’
Omar was stunned, he didn’t know if it had been a coincidence or something intentional, just as he couldn’t correctly interpret the implied language of the women. With more doubts than answers, he took a little distance so as not to avoid planting his eyes on the fabric that was swaying back and forth with each of the steps the girl took in her pompous walk.
‘I don’t mind having my hair down so much anymore,’ she said to herself, almost jumping up and down with happiness she couldn’t contain. ‘Maybe I look less strict and that’s why everyone is looking at me more than usual. What a wonderful morning! With my nipple, I can feel the hardness of his phone. I would put him in my panties, but I’m afraid to get him wet. Against my breast, he is in less danger. It would be even better if it started to vibrate. Oops, I can still feel his erection in my hand, and not long ago I was content with indirect touches and caresses.’
On the way out to the train station, Omar and Rebeka were practically the only ones on their way to the academy. In the place where they were, they didn’t have to use directions or signs; the building already had a great reputation for being the only one in the whole city. Without further interaction between the two, they found themselves at the entrance of the academic center and went their separate ways. Besides, they wouldn’t have anything to talk about, even if they wanted to.
‘What time is it?’ I wondered if Rebeka was looking at her handwatch; it was seven fifty-three. ‘There’s still time before classes start; maybe I can stop by the bathroom. It wouldn’t be the first time I’ve played with myself at school....’
In the academic center, there were three types of bathrooms, for men, for women, and for everyone. But they didn’t have much difference between them, only the gender-neutral ones were kept cleaner than the others.
‘I know me, it takes me time to finish,’ she thought somewhat regretfully. ‘Time is very tight. I’d better stop by my locker, grab my belongings, and go to the teacher’s lounge to turn in my homework on time. Then I’ll go to the classroom to take attendance, set up the board, take out the trash, and see that everything is in order. How inconvenient it is to be the class president and representative! However, keeping my mind busy is going to help me control these urges.’
Pushing past the restrooms, she made her way to the lockers down the well-traveled hallway of students milling about, something a little different from the way the train station was.
‘Okay, Rebeka, remember this,’ she said to herself as soon as she heard mocking laughter from people and someone tripping her unapologetically. ‘You’re going to be tried to be made to feel bad today too; you’ll have to deal with moody, jealous, and haughty people. That’s not reason enough to respond back, start an argument, and end up being ejected. Be a rock, control your emotions, and let everything subside around you without letting it affect you.’
After taking a few sharp breaths and checking her watch, she entered the teacher’s lounge, and after pretending to be interested in what they were saying, she stopped to listen to some people’s chatter.
‘Is it really necessary to stay in this school uselessly when I can look for a job and be independent?’ She asked herself, intrigued, while saying yes to the words of someone speaking to her.
The question came because, deep down, she wanted to get out of the life she had. She had to listen to the talk of older gentlemen, which, by the way, she was not listening to, as she could predict exactly what the end point was. They were talking with the aim of putting her through work and making her existence difficult. But it was one thing to want to and another to be able to. She could shut up and listen, because if she didn’t make it through school, how could she be sure that she would be able to make it through a day’s work and survive? After all, old people rule the world today. Those of little patience who complain and argue with their manias, point their fingers, attribute great expectations to others and those around them, and never assume to be wrong because they are incapable of learning.
“... These are the plans that the council plans to implement,” commented one of those present.
“I understand” replied Rebeka, with a submissive and well-mannered attitude.
“Convey the information to the students, collect the complaints, and at the end of the day, place the report on my desk,” said the subject in the midst of his busy morning activity, while realizing that he had had to rush his report so as not to consume too much time.
With the math book and notebook, Rebeka left the teacher’s lounge with exactly two minutes to get to her assigned classroom. After walking down the hallway, she noticed that the doors were open. She walked in and observed, as was now usual.
‘Some are already sitting at their stations, getting ready to start the shift,’ she thought, then said good morning, even though no one responded to her as was common there. ‘Being polite was part of society, and yes, once in a while it might get you out of some trouble, but it didn’t get you worse or better grades in school, so why be polite?’ Well, the answer was simple: you can’t be the class president, ask and demand work without following the basic rules of etiquette, introduce yourself, inquire, and ask.’
Rebeka wrote the day, month, and year on the board using the chalk on the side near the eraser, then wrote the instructor’s name, subject, and class topic. Finally, she organized everything and picked up the trash that was left in plain sight.
Ring, ring, ring.
The bell rang, and those who had previously stood in the hallway talking now came through the door and, as quickly as they could, moved to take their respective seats.
‘Mmm, he’s not there, nor is his friend,’ She thought she was not too surprised to say aloud:
“Pay attention; I’m going to pass attendance.”
She spoke from the front of the classroom, looking everyone in the eye. Pronouncing name by name, everyone responded “here” or "present,” but almost at the last moment, a boy entered who said something different.
“I’m sorry “”, Presi.""I hope I’m still on time.”
‘Precisely had to be Omar’s best friend, who walked in at the last moment, making a dramatic entrance. It doesn’t change that it’s irritating when he shortens my title, which from the beginning I didn’t like to have.’
Under Rebeka’s unfriendly gaze, the young man ran his hand behind his head, offered his apologies, and took a seat.
‘He is characteristic for having a personality that sets him apart from the others; if I had to describe him, I would say he is a relaxed, improvising, cheerful boy who almost always avoids trouble in his own way.’ Rebeka thought to add aloud:
“You are still on time; the teacher always takes ten minutes before coming to class. If your tardiness is repeated, I will be forced to report it, and once the instructor enters the classroom, you will be out of the class, which will force me to do extra paperwork.”
Reporting why she did each thing was a way of trying to soften up those listening to her. ‘Not that it always pays off, especially if no one is paying attention to you, but it feels good to say, “I told you not to do that” when you’re taking action on it.’
“You’ll excuse me, I’d better sit down quickly in this seat, as usual,” he said, with the characteristic look of a child who was about to do something bad.
Rebeka lifted her eyes from the paper she was holding and, ignoring the silent murmur of the individuals who had already confirmed attendance, decided to take a deep breath to add:
“That’s not your seat, Miguel.”
The seat selected by Miguel belonged to the table where the professor sat whenever he stood for a long time and did not want to return to his chair because it was too low and he could not make eye contact with the students. A booth that always remained empty because it was precisely marked with the smell of an old ass, one that was conveniently attached to the entrance and exit doors, Rebeka could tell that something was afoot in the atmosphere.
“May I conclude the attendance,” Rebeka said, not as a question but as an affirmation.
“No, Omar is missing. I saw him in the morning I could tell he was in the cafeteria much more worried than usual, like he had a tummy ache,” said a girl sitting right in the class corner.
Rebeka did her best to behave as civilizedly as possible. The pretentious voice that gave her a headache and very bad memories belonged to her former best friend, Lizandra, nicknamed “Liz”. Although in the past they broke up on very bad terms, Rebeka told her that she didn’t want to listen to him anymore, and Liz, as usual, made herself heard every time she had a chance to speak because of her very “intense” personality.
“If I remember correctly and my mind doesn’t fail me, he was next to you, Mig.” The blonde continued speaking and took the opportunity to abbreviate the name of the boy who was now sitting in the first seat and who was giving her something to talk about. “Am I wrong?”
Rebeka acted as if she hadn’t heard Lizandra’s words and continued to watch Miguel.
“Speaking of which, he had to go to the bathroom. He had stomach problems. Yes, he had to go very urgently,” said Miguel.
At this comment, the members of the class burst into laughter.
Rebeka, on the other hand, clenched her fist tightly. She was not amused by the mocking and immature laughter of this group of students. ‘How dare he sully his best friend’s reputation like that!’ she asked angrily. ‘I’d already forgotten how much it bothered me to hear that backstabbing, mean friend’s voice, and now that you're making comments like that, I may have to put you on the undesirable list.’
Aloud, Rebeka tried to regain order, for she was determined to focus on the matter at hand.
“I understand that fear can make someone feel like going to the bathroom, but Omar is not one of those. I hope you guys are still able to laugh when he is present and not behind his back.”
The comment from the president was bitter, but real. None of those present had the courage to laugh in such a way in front of Omar.
Once the commotion was resolved, Rebeka calculated the situation, which made her think. ‘What are you up to, Miguel?!’
Suddenly, the answer to the last question came along with a characteristic sound.
‘Ufff, with what so?’, she thought. ‘Someone is making a call, and that’s why his phone is vibrating.’ Miguel sat in the first seat and was paying much more attention to me than usual, as if he wants to know where my phone is. You are an open book to my intellect. But I must give you some credit. In front of the classroom, I am so embarrassed by my indecency that I don’t think I can stand the feeling. Even I didn’t know my nipples could be this sensitive. Maybe I’m about to come down with my period. Whatever it is, now I’ll have to take this thing out of my bra, but if I do, maybe he can snatch it from me and run; the door is still open... Ha. Don’t make me laugh.’
Tu, tutu, tururu tu... The rhythmic sound of a tone was gradually heard amidst the murmur of the classroom.
The students realized that a phone was beginning to ring, which made them keep quiet and pay attention to the direction of where the sound was coming from. Someone as proud and arrogant as Rebeka, who no one would imagine was such a pervert, was standing in front of a class, feeling the vibrations of someone else’s phone on her chest.
‘What?!’ ‘It wasn’t on the buzzer! What can I do now?’ she thought.
“Oh, ho ho ho. A phone is ringing. You’re not going to answer it, pre-si-dent” Miguel mentioned, stretching out every syllable uttered.
‘And you’re telling me this so blatantly?’ Rebeka said to herself, almost about to be caught in the act. ‘Many don’t recognize that such a common tone belongs to Omar, but if I pull out the phone now, not only will they see me pulling it out of my breasts, but they might recognize it as well. Still, the teacher doesn’t come in, but the silence is becoming more and more alarming.’
In a matter of seconds, in a well-improvised manner, Rebeka had no choice but to cough and put her hand to her chest. As quickly as she could, she managed to press one of the buttons on the edge of the device to mute the call for the time being.
Acting as she thought she would, slyly, she did her best improvisation of a sneeze. One was so exaggerated that it caused her to lean forward as she held her hand to her chest.
“It stopped sounding... It wasn’t so urgent then,” she said aloud as she clutched her chest with her right hand as if pretending to relieve her congestion. “Please, I’ll let it slide, but whoever’s phone it is, if it rings again, I’ll have to confiscate it.”
After the chairwoman’s sermon, those who were previously planning to laugh in front of Omar now lost interest in what was going on again and proceeded to continue talking about more interesting topics.
‘I have about five seconds to turn it off when it vibrates,’ she thought, as she avoided being exposed. ‘I’m glad I didn’t put it in my panties.’
After ignoring the issue, she turned the volume of the device down to vibrate while organizing her papers as quickly as she could. Just before heading on her way to her seat, Rebeka looked in the direction of the other stall that was empty, then at the door that still remained open, and said:
“Omar, I know you are out there in the hallway. Please come in before the teacher sees you.”
The class died down in stony silence at the chairwoman’s words. Cold sweat ran down the backs of those who had laughed at Miguel’s comment as the familiar face of Omar peeked through the doorway. It was he who, despite the fact that there was no student with his shirt on the outside, disheveled and showing his chest, was imposing in front of the teachers. The one whom everyone respected, admired, and almost idolized as a symbol of rebellion against the rules.
Omar made eye contact with those present, but, above all, Rebeka was the one who drew a facial expression that meant “I have you in the palm of my hand”.
Once he checked that no one present was willing to laugh in his face, he saluted Miguel as if he were giving him points for the failed effort. Then she threw the black sweater over her chair and sat down, until finally the professor entered the classroom.
After protesting and raging about the work he had left, the instructor of the “Calculus” class chuckled and blamed the ignorance of his students and that there was little he could do about those who were stupid.
After handing in the attendance list, Rebeka took the opportunity to walk in the direction of her station, taking care to keep her distance from any bags she might trip over. Once she arrived, she placed her book and notebook on the table, pretended to let them see that nothing was going on, and waited for class to officially begin. She sat in the last seat, one where she could barely hear what the professor was talking about or see the letters being written on the board, but it allowed her to fulfill her purpose of keeping an eye on the other students.
‘Being the president, I’m not at the front of the class, but at the back... ironic, isn’t it?’ Rebeka said to herself. ‘Of all the times I cursed this position, today is the day I’m happy to have it, since I can do what I want.’
Omar was chomping at the bit at anyone who tried to touch him, since no one but him knew that when class started, it would be the perfect time for Rebeka to do her thing and open the phone he wanted so badly to get back. He couldn’t help but look back several times, scaring the boys around him.
‘Seeing him like this makes me more curious,’ Rebeka thought, maintaining her triumphant smile. ‘I don’t know if it would be a good idea to open his phone right now. I might see something that would upset me... Since I know I’m a responsible and calm girl, I’ll just take a little peek.’
Sitting at her station, all organized and careful that no one was watching, Rebeka reached into her bra with the intention of pulling out the cell phone she had in there. After discreetly unbuttoning the first few buttons, she managed to pull out the top of the device. She turned her head from left to right and carefully kept pulling at the edges. Despite the width and weight, plus the friction her nipple was making on the screen, she was able to pull it all the way out, but not before continuing the movement with her other hand to fix the bra and hide the flesh that was peeking out.
When she finally had the phone on the table and the buttons on her shirt back where they belonged, Rebeka felt afraid to continue listening to the mischief her heart was telling her to do. This way, she wouldn’t have to expose herself to the danger of being reprimanded for inappropriate use of technology. Although with all the little attention she was getting sitting in the last chair, a miracle would have to happen for someone to see her doing what she was about to do. Like the sensible girl she was, she preferred to stay on the safe side, but without even intending to, her fingers typed the password.
‘My name,’ letter by letter, she pressed down on the touch screen and hit accept. ‘Anyway, I have to change it to silent mode...’
[The password entered is invalid, try again.] came a message on the screen.
The look on her face was confused. ‘Maybe no capital letter....’
As soon as she tried again: [The password entered is invalid, please try again].
‘I will try capitalizing all letters’: [The password entered is invalid, try again.]
‘Ha, ha, ha, ha... He fooled me. He lied to me, and I fell for it! How can this be possible? When he spoke into my ear, he sounded so convincing. Is this the reason why he was trying so desperately to get his phone back?! I really want to smash this thing. Yes, smash it, but against his face, for being shameless and a liar.’
‘I have to transform all this energy I have in me,’ she said to herself, as a method to calm down. ‘I will tear the first blank page out of my notebook. I’ll tear it up and shred it into little pieces,’ she continued to think. ‘My god, I can feel my ears on fire, I’m hot, I’m so angry, it’s not funny.’
“Rebeka,” said the instructor as soon as he heard the characteristic sound of a paper being shredded. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, I’m sorry I interrupted the class,” she said aloud “it’s just that I made a mistake.”
The professor wrinkled his nose and after warning not to repeat the interruption, continued explaining the subject matter to be taught.
‘Yes, I made a mistake,’ she thought, ‘I hope you get the message, Omar! What a rage, what a rage... Rebeka, you knew someone was going to make you angry, try not to end up expelled. Try to forget everything, clear your mind. What can you do, isn’t it.’
‘...Back to my routine. It was already a lot of joy to have someone put my name as the password to their phone. Too cute to be true....’
After setting aside a dismembered body hillock of a lined notebook sheet, Rebeka went from angry to sad. She placed the phone on the side of the table, close enough to notice if it started ringing, as she intended to turn it off. After taking the pink pencil out of its case, she turned the page and continued through the heading.
‘Oh, today’s date’ she remembered. ‘That’s the same date I wrote on the board. It’s two days until my birthday. It’s almost twenty-one summers in my body; I'm still a virgin, by the way. Mmm, not quite a virgin, come to think of it.’
‘As a curious girl, I confess that, although I am unfamiliar with the touch and caresses of a male’s flesh, as a fiery and perverted creature, I know what the insertion of various household objects inside me feels like.’
‘Twenty years in this condition and among the whole school, I can boast to be the most attractive. I may not have the biggest breasts or the roundest legs, or the longest hair, but I do have the best figure. Still, the fault is attributed to the fact that I am very picky, unlike the other gifted girls. Maybe for that reason, I still haven’t slept with a man at my age.’
‘He was perfect. He behaved like an animal from time to time, but I believed that in his heart he harbored pure intentions.’
'Wretch, who only causes me headaches, raises my happiness and then my disappointment, like a child playing with a toy airplane. Only this child lives on the second floor and threw the damn toy off the balcony and then picked it up and went upstairs to throw it farther away.’
‘So what’s my name?! You harassed me every day on the way to school?! I don’t believe you, liar!!! You don’t know anything about me! I do know everything about you... every little comment you made with your friends, every piece of gossip that runs through the halls, all the information the school has about you, your likes, your colors, your birthday. Are you really different? Don’t make me laugh... Where’s the proof?
‘I mustn’t cry, this is the second time today I’ve neglected my emotions. All because of that black-haired idiot.’
‘But it’s all very sad and I can hardly aim at him anymore.’
‘Another time I’ll have to go home alone. Another day of living in monotony. Another year in which I will find an anonymous letter in my locker, drawings of me, poems, and ridiculous confessions of love from someone committed to protecting me from the shadows. After researching for so long, you were the only one who fit the profile, but as a liar, even if it’s you, I’m not going to accept you.’
‘You failed the test, I can’t keep letting you play with my emotions.’
‘Aww! How many tries do I have with this damn cell phone to be able to guess the password! If I really know everything about you, this will be the litmus test where I can prove that you’re a fake!’
While the professor was writing on the blackboard, with the characteristic sound that the chalk made on the blackboard, Rebeka was writing down in her notebook, but it wasn’t the notes on the mathematical equations, but each password she wrote, as long as she didn’t need to repeat it and put a different one in each attempt.
‘One hundred and thirty-two tries and still nothing’ she confessed. ‘I’m about to give up.’
As she snorted from helplessness, Rebeka realized that she had not been able to move forward or pay attention to the class. Material that, as the teacher always said, ‘goes to test, study it.’ She was still there, stuck, or worse than before, a product of the headache she felt at not being able to keep generating information to find the password and put an end to the phone thing.
But she didn’t want to give up; she was infatuated, so there was no way she couldn’t keep trying, even if the most sensible thing to do was to claim the owner as a liar and extort him to give her the password. Although nothing assured her that the same level of curiosity could still exist in her with another password, she wanted to get up, shut the professor up, and get straight to the point in front of everyone.
Rebeka made the decision to take a deep breath. She had to remember to be patient, take things calmly, and keep a cool mind, for in this way the results promised to be more beneficial than the outcome of those decisions made in the heat of the moment and in desperation. After letting out all the air she accumulated in her chest, she looked through the window pane, but, unfortunately, little optimism and encouragement could be obtained with the panorama of a developing city, in which buildings clog the horizon.
‘Maybe I should trust him?’ She thought distractedly. ‘The right question is another. Who would be the perfect person for me?’
‘If I’m honest, the perfect guy would know my birthday, just as he wouldn’t let me spend it alone.’
{Rebeka 190702} After pressing accept, the phone screen gave access.
‘I can’t believe it!’
‘I’m so happy I could run screaming out the door right now. My heart is racing, I can hardly stop it, and my hands are sweating and shaking. I don’t believe what I see, and I feel like I’m actually doing something forbidden... but, it’s open, and I can explore it all’ she said to herself as she looked at the icons floating on a light-colored screen background.
Despite everything she felt, Rebeka remained still for a few minutes, with her best poker player’s face. Anyone looking at her would believe that there was nothing to disturb the tranquility of this girl who always breathed peacefully, as if she was in absolute harmony with the world, enjoying the silence and living the moment to the fullest.
‘This feeling of fear is not good,’ she said to herself, swallowing dryly, torn to pieces inside. ‘It leaves me so nervous that it makes me want to go to the bathroom, but I have to hold on. I have to hold it in, after all, I have Omar’s phone in my hands. Now that the professor is still distracted in his explanation, I’d better start with the best part, the gallery. It would be great to see if he has any nude photos. As soon as I find them, I’m going to transfer them to my phone. Ahh, to think I was so depressed, about to cry, now I’m so happy!!!!.’